Cigarettes, sex and candy.

I’d take it all back to start over again

My body hurts. I need my meds.

My mind hurts. I need my meds.

I need to go.

gemsywriteserasermic:

lizardswithoutlegs:

ok please note i had no idea what i was doing for any of this and theres probably a much better way to construct a base BUT this is what…. ended up happening

the vague shape of it is getting there … . .

needs more bands

MORE BANDS

becoming a flat onion

the top is removed so i can get inside of it

 … and then a band of cardboard is placed on the inside to support it ( its standing !! )

the bands are cut on the places where they jut out and then overlapped and taped, so the shape is smoother but its STILL an onion

so i cut the whole damn thing in half and added a big band of cardboard in the middle to lengthen it out. the Orb is being born

its rounded out a little bit more on the sides and then the mouth is cut out 

FABRIC

F A B R I C  ( this is the point in the game where my gluegun stopped working, and so everything from this point on is glued by me heating the sticks over a candle flame. nice

the seams on the fabric are cut and glued into place ( and hand stitched in a lotta places and a lot of em look, Really bad in the back h hah  HA ) and the teeth ( fleece, cardboard to keep em flat, and a little bit of stuffing ) are thrown in the mouth

tongue cuttin

handstitched the seams on the tongue, got the base for it ready and the eyes cut out

the EYES ( cardboard with white on one side, black on the other, and a little thin strip of black going along the edge ) ( also the pupils arent glued down yet hey )

EYES

TONGUE

THERE THEY ARE

tulle time, so  much goddamn tulle

SO much of it just everywhere on the back its a mess, the back looks like an awful grape but it doesnt matter its the BACK

heres the Looking Hole ( theres black mesh netting over the top ) - the little pink eye details are also in

and then here it is, this Mess ( tights and boots both are probably gonna change but Oh Well ) i dont know what the tongue was doing so crooked in these shots but its TOO LATE

UPDATE: THERES actually a video of it in motion heyooo

This is cursed but I love it

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fission-mailure:

areeceyafterlife:

fission-mailure:

I see your ‘Ultimecia is Rinoa’ theory and raise you ‘Ultimecia is the Great Hyne.’ 

 Explain.

I’m glad you asked/demanded on pain of death.

Okay, so the Great Hyne is purportedly the god who empowered sorceresses, and you can find about five different variations of the myth about him, all of which are contradictory – and in fiction, ‘multiple contradictory myths’ is usually shorthand for ‘this is semi-true, but has been distorted.’

Of the features consistent across the myths, we know:

Hyne has ‘two halves,’ and he gives half of his body to humanity (with myths differing on whether the sorceress power is the half he gives, or the half he keeps), while the other is never found.

People go to war with Hyne, and Hyne kills or abducts children.

Hyne is the source of every sorceress’ power.

Then we have Ultimecia, who becomes a goddess of sorts when she performs time compression. When she does, she looks like this:

She has two distinct halves to her body: The powerful upper half, and the bound lower half. The upper half also forms part of the backdrop in the fight, showing stars and planets, indicative of Ultimecia achieving a deified nature.

When Ultimecia is killed in this form, she’s actually still alive – her human form (which is her lower half here) escapes and gives Edea her power, because a sorceress can’t die until they’ve passed on their power.

We’ll get to that later, but first: Hyne goes to war with humans, and kills children (either as the instigating incident in the war or as part of it). Ultimecia was, we know, persecuted for being a sorceress (in a stable time loop where she attempts to alter the past to become a god in order to escape that persecution, but her actions in possessing other sorceresses creates their bad reputation which leads to her being persecuted), but we also know that Ultimecia specifically fights SeeD: Outside her castle are the bodies of dozens of White SeeDs, and SeeD are all child soldiers, at least when they’re starting out. So Ultimecia does kill children.

Back to her giving Edea her power: Notably, Ultimecia is apparently the only sorceress of her era, and one recipient can gain multiple sorceress’ power (because Rinoa does just that), so it’s likely that in the far future, all of the sorceress lineages converge on Ultimecia somehow.

Edea, however, is just a regular sorceress with a single sorceress’ power, not the recipient of dozens or hundreds of sorceress’ power.

Moreover, the Junction Machine Ellone that Ultimecia has apparently been using to possess sorceresses from across history can, if it functions like Ellone’s powers do, only be used to transplant someone’s mind through time to the body of someone they have a personal connection to. Ultimecia has a connection to Edea through giving Edea her power, but she shouldn’t have one to Adel, who she also possesses.

Instead, it seems plausible that Ultimecia is the originator of all sorceress lineages: After her defeat, she’s fragmented through time into as many copies as she has sorceress’ powers, and appears to the sorceress at the start of each lineage, granting them one sorceress power each. This in turn makes another stable time loop where they pass on their powers until Ultimecia becomes the eventual recipient of all of them, is defeated, and is fragmented through time to start the loop again.

This would also explain why there’s apparently an ancient legend about a ‘Legendary SeeD’ defeating her (and that legend sets Ultimecia up to hate and fear the SeeDs), despite the fact that only Squall’s party was present for it – Ultimecia tells a woman the story as she gives her the sorceress power, and they pass it on, while others to whom she gives the power pass on the story of the Great Hyne. Essentially, a third stable time loop where the prophecy drives Ultimecia to actions that ultimately result in her telling people about it, which then becomes a prophecy.

tl;dr: Stable time loops, yo.

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rohie:

“The low-maintenance woman, the ideal woman, has no appetite. This is not to say that she refuses food, sex, romance, emotional effort; to refuse is petulant, which is ironically more demanding. The woman without appetite politely finishes what’s on her plate, and declines seconds. She is satisfied and satisfiable.

A man’s appetite can be hearty, but a woman with an appetite is always voracious: her hunger always overreaches, because it is not supposed to exist. If she wants food, she is a glutton. If she wants sex, she is a slut. If she wants emotional care-taking, she is a high-maintenance bitch or, worse, an “attention whore”: an amalgam of sex-hunger and care-hunger, greedy not only to be fucked and paid but, most unforgivably of all, to be noticed.”

— Hunger Makes Me, Jess Zimmerman

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Anonymous asked: Will you be posting a final nude before the nudity ban next week?

Kindly fuck off.

I feel so sick

Please let me get some sleep tonight

thefingerfuckingfemalefury:

misscherrylikesthediscourse:

reallyreallife:

Reblog for some new year money magic

NEW YEAR MONEY MAGIC BRING ME THE BIG CASH MONEY WAD

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kellmichele:

uncovered-shipper:

“It was toxic. Our relationship was toxic. We loved each other but it was a constant back and forth from bliss to pain and pain to bliss. We couldn’t be the people who we wanted to be. We were too tied up to each other. It didn’t help that we also had to hide from everyone. It was getting harder and harder to breathe. It was suffocating. Our love was real but maybe, it was just not the right time. We needed to love ourselves first. Maybe, one day, we will meet again and never let each other go.”

—

oh my god

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